I want to write about something amazing. Something that changed my life.
I want to write about spending two years immersed in the otherworld and how, at the end of my time there, I learned lessons that broke my heart. I want to write this, to you, so you can see.
I was completely wrong and in being so gained back my life.
Right now, I’m sitting before my altar, letting the candle of my gods burn. Old offerings sit in their bowls. I have been away all weekend, making offerings to my travel altar. Incense ash has built up on the surface, as it should over the week. When morning comes, I will clean it all away.
And I sit with my gods, contemplating.
My life is a series of missteps for which only I can take responsibility. This is one of the holiest lessons of the gods, and it is spoken to us all uniquely. They come to us and lift us up. They show us glory.
For me, they spirited me away. As if for lifetimes, I dwelt in their world and let them spin glamour about me. They gave me myths, their potent truths, their overwhelming tales of themselves. And I was in awe, and the truth of myself was veiled in my pursuit of Them.
But as time came, they took their veils away. I had lost myself in their world. The truth of who I was – Aine – washes over me. All illusions and lies melted, as they have to.
The Gods revealed themselves to me. For me to reveal them to others, I had to be my own self. And more than that, I had to take responsibility for all that I was – and could be.
When it was shown that my life was an illusion, that all was not like I thought, I was crushed. Anger flooded me.
But no sooner did it bite then another wave hit me, and I was, for the first time in a long while, at peace. I knew myself again, and in knowing myself knew the gods.
My journey did not end in anger or hate. What I learned from my time in the world known as the West was how to be. I learned perhaps the holiest lesson I know:
how to hope.
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